Unexpected Visit
When I awoke this morning there was a tightness in my chest but I went ahead and went in to work. By 7:30 I called our family doctor and he advised I go directly to the emergency room. At Norton Audubon there are at least 20 rooms in ER but the one they placed me in was right next to the acute care room Genevieve was in for the majority of Good Friday. To add to this equation I also had the same doctors and nurses as she had. For 4 hours I lay in the bed looking out at the portion of the hallway where I basically homesteaded when I had to leave her room. The Father knew I needed this time in that place to work through some issues in my heart I didn’t even know I had.
I stared out of the room reliving that day and seeing it clearly for the first time and processing it in my heart. I was able to thank and bless each of the doctors and nurses who had been with Genevieve. With all the patients they see daily each one remembered who Genevieve and I were. As they came to offer condolences I was able to bless them and share bits and pieces of the testimony of the whole season. It was by no means a grand testimonial dinner but it was exactly what I needed. I found myself having fond memories of that day and how Daddy sustained us and prepared me to release her. It was like there was a part of the whole day that had become a blur in the midst of all that went on and I needed to remember. What I had forgotten was how closely Daddy had held us in His hands that day and how when the moment came to release her to Him, He not only overwhelmed me with His peace and strength, but He upheld my family and comforted their hearts and drew them to His bosom.
I remember the Peace of God that was so overwhelming as I released her. I remember now how strong His presence was in that room as I kissed her goodbye. Even as I write this I am being washed by waves of Comfort and filled with an unspeakable gratitude for how intimately He manifested Himself to us at the moments of our greatest need. I am so thankful that I went to the ER today and that once again Daddy knew just what I needed and met me exactly where I was.
And by the way, they couldn’t find anything wrong with my heart and as I reflect back on today I agree with them because the Divine Physician knew exactly what to do and was faithful to do it.
